Hope everyone had a wonderful Yule and a great christmas! It was okay here, nothing spectacular. I went to a friends house for a Yule celebration which was nice - christmas day I mostly just watched tv and played some video games. We had some issues with internet outages on the 23rd and 24th which messed up my work schedule, but things seem to be back to normal now so I should be able to return to work today with no issues. I don't expect it to be very busy, but you never know! This is the traditional time of year when everyone starts talking about doing a new years' resolution, so I started thinking about what things I'd like to accomplish or improve for the new year, and so far I have a few ideas: The number one goal I'd like to accomplish is to finally put PamIAm Gaming on the map! I've started teaching myself how to use OBS Studio, and after finding a couple of very outstanding YouTube video tutorials, I managed to record a short test video and it turned out pretty good - the sound is a bit muffled, but I'm sure I can find out how to resolve that as well. My next big challege here is to learn some basic editing skills, and get the first video uploaded to my channel.

In other goals, I want to get a vehicle this coming year. I want to spend more time with friends, and maybe do a little travelling. Nothing too over ambitious, but a few good things to work on. I hope things are going well in your world and as always, feel free to drop a comment or send me an email with your thoughts or ideas.

People have asked me about my Tarot cards over the years. I purchased this deck in my early 30s, and I have it now to this day. It's old, and full of hard truths. I'm the only person who has ever read from it. I used to do a lot of readings back when I was younger, it was sort of a "parlor trick" I guess you could say, folks are always psyched to have you do a spread for them - who doesn't want to hear all about themselves, right? I started noticing almost immediately that it seemed to have an uncanny accuracy, especially when I was doing a spread for someone I felt a bond towards. After a pretty bad breakup around that time, I did a spread for myself and it was blindingly, painfully, accurate. I thought about it for quite awhile, and decided to put my Tarot cards down because the truth was just too frightening to know. Well, I recently felt a desperate need for guidance, and reached out to a good friend to see about getting a reading done. No sooner did I ask than the fates started conspiriring against me to block me from doing it and I started feeling this drive, urge, whatever you want to call it, to pick my deck back up. When the Gods have something to say, ignore it at your own peril. I'm listening.

Billy Summers - Stephen King Book Review

Billy Summers by Stephen King
My rating: 5 of 5 stars

Stephen King is one of those authors that can tell a story about almost anything and make it an amazing page turner! Billy Summers is one of those books that aren't my usual type of story, but I found it enthralling, exciting, funny, and sad as well. Definitely worth the read.

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 I just finished Matthew Perry's book, here's my quick review

Friends, Lovers, and the Big Terrible Thing by Matthew Perry
My rating: 5 of 5 stars

Matthew Perry is not only a talented actor, but he is also a wonderful writer. Getting the chance to delve into a behind the scenes look at his rise to fame and his difficulties with addiction has been a sobering read, with alot of honesty and love. I highly recommend this.

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 I'm coming at the world today with some real talk and some real questions. I'd like to talk about the human skill that is trusting your own judgement. Do you constantly second guess yourself and your decisions? Do you have trouble making a definitive decision about something, and then sticking to it? Well friend, if this sounds like you, take heart - because it's me, too. 

I know I have several mental illnessess that impair my thinking and judgement. Therefore, I question and judge myself on every single thing I say or do. Not only is it mentally and physically exhausting, it's also dangerous and failure inducing. 

So, what do you do? Platitudes aside, seriously now - how do you stop doing that?